where have we been? where are we going? to a halloween party to make out on a golf course to the roof of a building on a narrow street we talked on yahoo on a modem made in 1990 i made a mix tape and it hit you hit you in a good way shout from the rooftops that i know you are the other half of a heart that’s broken, mangled barely beating (too much coffee) the other day you made us dinner brought home flowers took the dogs out, cleaned the cat box, went to bed and I stayed up and marveled at your beauty, at your kindness, at the way you’re still in my head you’ve asked me many times to tell you what the hell we’re doing here and i might not have an answer but to say ours is the next frontier, my dear then came plague year when i couldn’t stand my own reflection you made me soup and kept me going in the right direction you said goodbye to rotten assholes and it cut you deep but as we bleed out, we still hold each other in our sleep and when our hearts stop that’ll be the last thing that we see this fucking city-ha-at first we thought we’d never stay here and now we have a home, we made a family we like better we pull the cat in when he’s in the yard (he’s not allowed there) and then we chuckle—life’s still hard, but at least we’re together you’ve asked me many times to tell you what the hell we’re doing here and i might not have an answer but to say ours is the next frontier, my dear I tried to write a love song that I’m pretty sure is creepy good thing you love and like my sense of humor, dark and dreary thing is, honey, your love lets me be me.

I’ve been trying to find the time To make the masterpiece that’s inside It feels impossible Lately things have been feeling fine We tended to the problems at home It seems improbable That the medicine works so well I’ve been going at this all wrong (I never meant to say that out loud) I am too difficult Or maybe just past my prime I don’t know what else Would cause this ache in my head This urgent sense of confusion dread I am impractical My brain, my body, my soul, whatever… Anything seems to go But with the mask sliding to the side It feels impossible I don’t like this pain in my neck It makes me think of unpleasant things ‘Just be responsible Call the doctor and lie down once in a while’ I don’t think you get what I mean ( Maybe if I share my screen?) I am infallible I will fall, I will hurt, I will bend But I will not break

(Nature’s first green is gold Her hardest hue to hold Her early leaf’s a flower But only so an hour Then leaf subsides to leaf So Eden sank to grief) Some say the world will end in fire Some say ice From what I’ve tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire If it had to perish twice, For destruction, ice It would suffice Some say the world will end in fire Some say ice If it had to perish twice I think I know enough of hate If it had to perish twice Ice would suffice Some say the world will end in fire Some say ice As one who knows desire My vote is fire (So dawn goes down to day… Nothing gold can stay.) Most diffuse to cloud Not all light tongues talking aloud Could be profound

There were families Brothers, sisters torn apart And the only line I ever heard Was the line when you told me “Girl, you’d better listen, Cause the days for you are numbered” There was a gathering You could call it a reunion And the only thing understood Was the time when they said “You do what you got to to get by… You do what you got to to get by” When they all ran outside Was when we dropped the bomb You could hear the screams of terror for miles But who really knew (It so well hidden) Who really knew There were protests People in the streets with signs that said “You murdered this man, and there’s blood on your hands” With signs that said “I can’t believe I have to do this shit again” And rainbow flags “I want a better place for my kids” We gotta figure this out Before it’s too late Before it all ends God knows no one ever wanted to do this shit again Writing protest songs Marching on the square Then coming home, beat down and ready to collapse Before we get up and go again

Something rotten this way comes Started back in 1940 Creeps and crawls and slithers along Like a monster from a fantasy The world is on fire But in the tower, they count their money We all knew it would happen this way You can only run for so long Before you get in your own way

Close your eyes, and it’s ninety-five Drinking vodka in an attic Strumming songs on a pawn shop guitar Or bumming smokes outside the mall Come pick me up, and Let’s get out of town Go to the ocean Go to the city Do anything that’s outside the norm They’re all married and have kids You weren’t kidding with this shit Pain in all our hands and wrists We just went to bed one night Awoke to jobs and bills and bullshit Quit smoking, quit drinking We don’t party on the weekends Come pick me up, and Let’s get out of town Go to the forest Go to an island Do anything we haven’t done You weren’t kidding with this shit We aren’t quite ready for this Pain in both our knees and hips Got up one day and we were 40 Breathing life into existence spending time on finding face cream Staying up and binging true crime Highlight of the week Come pick me up, and Let’s get out of town Go to the mountains Go to the desert Do anything that we wanna do Do you remember That ford in the valley Where my friend took me When the guy who’s dead now hurt me She made me get out and wade in the water Saying, “you’ll be okay. someday, this’ll just be a memory” Do you remember That smell in the valley Where we used to drive around, Smoking blunts, blaring music That we thought would scare the olds Who would never get it, they would never understand Who we were going to be